I never could write poetry that rhymed...it always sounded so very silly. I really do write upbeat and positive poems, and I will post those too as I dig them out of my files. But I wrote this just a few months ago, sitting in a cemetery on a hill screaming silently at God for taking away my only friend, feeling unbelievably sad, then unbelievably angry, and then amazingly peaceful. I just needed to share it...it helps me to heal. Maybe it can help some one else heal too.
My Sister...My Best Friend
I came to see you today
Sitting on the ground beside you.
The birds sang their songs just for us
The sounds echoing through the
trees.
The wind shaking the leaves...
The silence was deafening.
I spoke to you, told you how I was doing
Not expecting an answer, but wanting one.
I thought I heard your voice
In the wind
And then you were gone...
Again...
I screamed out...I Hate This!
Why take you?! Why the anguish?! Why this pain?!
So much to do...so much left unsaid!
This is so unfair!
My anger welled up and spilled out.
And then a peaceful quiet came to me.
You aren't in pain anymore
And my own will ease in time.
Your bright smile...your sunny attitude...
Your love for all things...
good and bad...
This world wasn't good enough
for someone like you.
You were wanted elsewhere
And it was my privilege
to be near you
to have you in my life
for the short time you were here.
And I am blessed because of it.
And I miss you....
Tammy died in April, 2006 at the age of 36. Everyone who met her was better for it. The garden that I planted in my yard this year was to be our garden. She loved to garden, especially
flowers, but after fighting cancer for over 5 years, she couldn't fight any more. That garden and this poem are dedicated to her. And I know she's in Heaven because she was too good a person to have gone anywhere else.