Don't know if this is allowed b/c of religion but I need to talk - January 2nd, 2006 at 12:33 PM
hi everybody. my brother and I just had a conversation (more like and argument) about him not wanting to go to church anymore with me. I know it might not seem like such a big deal but I started bawling my eyes out. he said that he just isn't "feeling" it. I guess he's just confused and just doesn't believe in God. I don't know really what he's saying. he says it's hard to explain and I'm really confused. I don't know if he was ever truly saved, I very highly doubt it. but whenever our preacher would ask everybody what they were thankful for like at christmas and thanksgiving people would stand up and say what they were thankful for and my brother would always say he was thankful for his salvation. I asked him if he really had salvation and if he knew what it was and he said he didn't. and he didn't know what salvation meant. I had to tell him and I told him that when services were going on it seemed like he wasn't ever interested. he said he wasn't really and that he had a hard time understanding what the preacher was preaching about. I told him that you really have to listen and pay attention to what the preacher is saying and then you'll catch on. so I guess after all this my brother isn't going to be going to church with me for awhile. me and everybody else will miss him greatly. I told him that my main new year's resolution was to have a little bible study almost everyday where me and him would sit down and read and try to understand the bible more together and I asked him if we could do that and he said that he wasn't really interested in doing that. so I told him that I guessed I'd have to do it by myself. can everybody please do me a favor and please pray for him? there's been alot of stress in our family lately and I'm really really worried about my brother. I hope it was ok to post this here. I know that bill doesn't really like to have anything debateable on here and religion can get pretty debateable, so if anybody see's the need to delete this go ahead. thanks everybody for reading this. I'm sorry to write something so depressing but I just didn't have anybody else to talk to. I tried talking to my mom but she doesn't understand and neither her nor my dad are religious people at all. I just feel like I'm all alone