I am trying to understand.... - July 17th, 2005 at 01:45 PM
It is no secret that the past few months (all year actually) has been very trying for me. One difficult thing after another. Hubby's long ordeal with the back surgery and now an unidentified mass in his hip that they believe to be cancer. Now, 10 months off work, we are financially wiped out..only to have our baby diagnosed as autistic. And now waiting to find out what type of treatment he will require and possibly having to find a way to re-locate for that treatment. And, my ordeals with chronic fibromyagia make it VERY difficult to carry the bunt of the load at home. And to think, last summer, when I came to the forum...my biggest crisis was white flies and a gardenia bush that needed transplanting! I don't ask "why" very often...I have been through enough in my life that the "why" isn't really the important question, HOW is the much more urgent question on my mind these days. I am saying all of this to let you know that tonight..I am peaceful, calm and happy...mainly because Peanut laughed last night...and he did again tonight.
I have made some VERY special friends here. Some of you that I feel I have known forever. At times when we are "playing" ...it is almost as though we are all sitting around the kitchen table...there for each other. I just don't want you all to think that I am an all gloom & doom! We ALL have our "things" to carry and that's okay. I pray for you all as I know and can certainly tell that you pray for my family & I, and I just wanted to thank you all!
So, I want to share a little story that has helped me not ask "why"...in hopes that it will help you with whatever you are having to carry today!
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I have made some VERY special friends here. Some of you that I feel I have known forever. At times when we are "playing" ...it is almost as though we are all sitting around the kitchen table...there for each other. I just don't want you all to think that I am an all gloom & doom! We ALL have our "things" to carry and that's okay. I pray for you all as I know and can certainly tell that you pray for my family & I, and I just wanted to thank you all!
So, I want to share a little story that has helped me not ask "why"...in hopes that it will help you with whatever you are having to carry today!
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