So today I got a little flipped out. Ok, ok, I admit it, I got a big bunch of flipped out. I wanted to sign out of the hospital, go the heck home and forget about all this mess.
So I cried some, wheeled around the hallways some, tried to read some (darn boring books in this place!), slept some, and thought about all you guys some. Finally, I called my priest and told him what was up.
Fr. Sam always seems to know exactly what to say to me in precisely the right tone of voice. Don't know how he does that, exactly, but he does. So he agreed that yup, I really
could go home. I could do that. But then he very sensibly and very gently got me making a list of all the benefits if I stayed and went through with tomorrow's procedure.
After the procedure, the chest pain will go away.
After the procedure, I'll get to be with Maxi again, more like a real mom.
After the procedure, I'll be able to have the new leg made and will probably be up and walking around by early April pain free.
After the procedure, I'll be able to return to church in a few weeks nd hang out with all my friends.....
Then he reminded me that since I'm scheduled to go down so early, really by the time I wake up wake up, it will all be over. And he will be waiting for me on the other side. And Edward will bring Maxi too after school.
So I've re-read all your kind posts and somehow have found my courage again. Thanks, guys!
This procedure requires me to lay flat for 10 hours afterwards without raising my head or moving my arms and legs, so I'm guessing I won't be able to post anything else until late Monday night...maybe after 10 PM or so.... and I really can't wait to tell y'all how well everything went!
Merme
.....yet?????
