I finally found the time and strength to sit down and read through this thread. Thanks very much for the nice words.
On Saturday, my water broke and the doctor said that tends to put your body in motion for labor...which it did. On Sunday, the resident checked me and I had dilated to 4 centimeters and by noon on Monday, I was fully dilated. Samantha was soo little that the contractions were just too intense for her. She was tiny...could fit into your hand. They checked for a pulse, but there wasn't any. I got to hold her for just a little before I was taken to the OR because the placenta was stuck to my uterus. While they were getting the placenta out, I lost enough blood that I had to be watched closely Monday evening. I was being given meds to keep me from hemorrhaging and have been pumped with antibiotics since Saturday to keep infection out of my uterus. Physically, my body is tired. I got very little sleep while I was in the hospital because the nurses were changing my IV bags every hour or so. Emotionally, we are doing ok. I've been trying to keep myself busy as I am not allowed to drive until next week and not expected to go to work until Monday (although I will probably chicken out). The hospital gave us a "memory box" that has a little blanket identical to the blanket they wrapped Samantha in, along with a small teddy bear and the flowers
that they took her picture with. I've put my hospital bracelet in the box as well as the pictures they took of her and her tiny little hat that was put on her head. We've been getting sympathy cards mixed in with our Christmas cards, which is a little hard for us, but the sympathy cards are going into the box as well. Right now, I am looking for some sort of ornament to hang on the tree
for Samantha. We get a new ornament every year...Stephen collects the Star Trek space ships from Hallmark and I collect ornaments while we go on vacation, but I want something for Samantha, so I am spending some of my time looking for one that I like.
That is pretty much all that there is to say right now. Again, thanks for your thoughts and prayers. Its nice to know that they are there.
Also, thanks to some very special people for the wonderful Samantha plant
that I received on Wednesday. We both love it and will treasure it always.